Hi Little Me!
I hope you are well. I hope you tell people how you feel instead of masking it until you cannot take it anymore. I hope you love and treat yourself because sometimes everyone needs a little extra TLC. It does not mean you are broken or that there is something wrong with you. There isn’t. In fact, you’re about to find out what you have been feeling has a name, and it is Depression. Not so uncommon. At first, this will scare you; it will make you feel isolated from your friends and family, but know this – many of them are struggling too. Good for you for being brave enough to say, “This isn’t right; I deserve more.” There will be times in your life you needed to have that mentality but didn’t. Be proud when you do.
You don’t want anyone (friends or family) to know because they might think you’re crazy. I promise you they won’t. They will be impressed at your confidence to own it and communicate that to them. That takes some big guts, especially for a high school student. I know you feel like you are ready to be an adult, but you’re not. Enjoy this time and soak everything up like a sponge. Believe it or not this time will be something you look back upon and miss. Hold on to those memories as tight as you can. As soon as you walk out that door, they begin to fade quicker than you imagined they would.
Don’t be afraid to be yourself. How cliché, right? I know you’re rolling your eyes, but I mean it. It is hard for some people even in their mid-twenties to be themselves, don’t follow that trend. Yeah, so what you’re quirky and a bit of a nerd – people will like that because you’re authentically you. If you are undeniably yourself, you never have to be worried if people love you for you because you know they will. And how could they not – we’re pretty awesome ;). No, I don’t want to toot our own horn here, but I want to encourage the timid high school girl in the same position, to be unapologetically herself. It is so hard especially in today’s social media age, for kids to be themselves because they are constantly wishing they are someone else. The comparisons that social media emits are almost more dangerous than old-fashioned jealousy. All you ever see on social media are the good parts. At least in person, you can see the whole package.
I know you can’t wait to go to college and then once you’re in college you won’t be able to wait to graduate. I get it, you’re ready for the next adventure, and believe me there will be plenty of time for that, but don’t leave the current adventure too early. Enjoy the present moment, and take each day as it comes. Your strength will be tested within these next few years. Hold on tight to yourself, your values, and your beliefs. It is easy to let life shake them out of you, but that lessens your individuality. That would be a shame. We need your uniqueness because how else will we continue to grow and better this world?
Finally, if I can leave you with anything, let me leave you with this – live your best life. If you have an opportunity, seize the hell out of it. You never know what tomorrow will bring or where one opportunity could lead you. Never take a single second for granted because before you know it – you’ll be me, 25 and adulting. There is a season for each chapter of your life – let them flow, as they come.